I want to share with you today what's in my heart. God NEVER fails me, whatever it is that I really need, he always provides it. Whether it's strengh, a kind word from someone, or the courage to do what I need to do. I am always amazed and in awe of his loving kindness.
I don't know if you know this, but I have a muscle weakness called Slow Channel Myasthenia Gravis. I've been doing real well with the medication I am on through the Mayo Clinic. I am a wife, a mother of 2 grown children who are still at home. I am an artist and I work part time (2.5 hours a day) in the lunchroom at an elementary school. I wash the tables after each class finishes so it's clean for the next class on my half of the lunchroom. We have over 1,000 kids in our school. I also make sure there's enough silverware and replenish that. For 2.5 hours I am very busy washing tables.
Now, I've had my ups and downs, and this is the first time that I've been able to do my job where I always wash the tables and not take volunteer kids to help. I've been truly blessed.
This week by the time I am finished, once I get out to my car I can barely catch my breath. I have to sit there to get my breathing back to normal.
Today was tough. I don't know why today seemed so much harder and crazier than other days, but there were times that I had to stop for a minute while washing a table to catch my breath. I haven't had this problem for two years. I'm thinking, how am I going to get through tomorrow, today is only Thursday. If I'm this tired today, I'm going to have to go home and do absolutely nothing but rest to make it through tomorrow. My job is physically hard for me, but I am able to do it.
Then as I am putting the bucket and rags away, my friend Carol, who works on the other side of the lunchroom says, "Have a good weekend, I'll see you next week."
I looked at her and wondered what she was talking about, wasn't she going to come to work tomorrow? Well, she saw the confusion on my face and said, "Don't you know there's no school tomorrow? We have a 3 day weekend."
I didn't know, oh joy! A great big smile broke out on my face, praise God! Here I am so tired and wondering how I'm going to make it through tomorrow, only to find out that I don't work tomorrow, I have the day off. Hallejuia! What a gift, it's exacly what I need. I just started laughing with joy and am so thankful. Then a bit later I got tears in my eyes, because only my Jesus knows what I need before I even know. He is always faithful to get me through whatever lies ahead.
I know these are tough times for so many of us, but when I put my eyes on Jesus and praise Him, and stop focusing on the negative, He always either calms the storm, or He calms me.